It looks kinda like a check for “two hundred farts” was made out to… nobody! Love it when my clients don’t even know my name 😒
i was feeling pretty bulletproof there for a while, but what do you do when the happiness that you felt you so richly deserved collapses underneath you? and for no particular reason? nothing has changed, really. something is getting to me though, and it’s effecting the thing that means the most to me. danny is going through the same thing, and we’ve been toxic to each other lately. i know that everything is cyclical, and that nobody’s relationship is always gonna be perfect forever, but i’m so sad and so upset right now. it feels as though the brightest spot in my life is out, and i’m lost in almost total darkness. what do i do? wait for this to pass? try to be more active in reclaiming my happiness? i don’t want to give up. i know that there is light at the end of this. i can see it and i can feel it. i’m just terrified of fucking it up along the way.
mang it’s kinda nuts when you feel happier/more welcome at a death metal show that you attended by yourself than you do at a party full of people that you’ve known for more than four years
anyway, exhumed ruled ass tonight. fortunately/unexpectedly/against all odds, my wasted ass got home safe.